[And he's quiet, anxious and quiet and altogether too focused on how his hand is still trapped underneath Rohan's, thrumming uncertain with a sort of sleepy adrenaline that reminds him of tensing up in preparation for a fight, except that there isn't going to be a fight. It's the same kind of anticipation. He's never been this uncertain about a fight before.
He swallows and thinks of playing poker, of video games with his own soul giving his movements away — all those times when he didn't know what he was doing, but refused to let on about it, and got by in the end by making it up as he went.
He doesn't feel cool or secure in himself, but he can at least act like it.]
...If you're going to ask me something, be sure it's what you want before you ask. I'm warning you that you're pretty hard to say no to, when you're looking at me like that.
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[And he's quiet, anxious and quiet and altogether too focused on how his hand is still trapped underneath Rohan's, thrumming uncertain with a sort of sleepy adrenaline that reminds him of tensing up in preparation for a fight, except that there isn't going to be a fight. It's the same kind of anticipation. He's never been this uncertain about a fight before.
He swallows and thinks of playing poker, of video games with his own soul giving his movements away — all those times when he didn't know what he was doing, but refused to let on about it, and got by in the end by making it up as he went.
He doesn't feel cool or secure in himself, but he can at least act like it.]
...If you're going to ask me something, be sure it's what you want before you ask. I'm warning you that you're pretty hard to say no to, when you're looking at me like that.