[Subconsciously, he reaches out when Rohan tries to look him in the eyes, arms extended like he's looking for contact and hoping to find it by holding him.]

I don't know why I can't stop feeling like that. If I know better, then it ought to just go away, right?

[...Yes, Virginia, because that's exactly how emotions work, you can just rationalize them away with logic, that's why everyone does it.]

I don't want to live always waiting for the next thing to go wrong...but sometimes it seems like that's just how my life is always going to be.