[ While he just admitted that he knows he does wrong, it's hard to be given such harsh criticism from Josuke of all people. Rohan's skull is too thick to shake it off and he, of course, takes it personally. Josuke is saying that he isn't a psychopath-- He's not mad, just disappointed.
Josuke isn't aware of WHY Rohan is in on this. It's for a selfish reason. A reason nonetheless. ]
Josuke, She helped me. She helped fix something that I wouldn't have been able to mend on my own. You know that I am not the type to blindly run into things. When I needed the most help--... When I was rapidly losing inspiration to make art here, that was when I went to Her. I'm well aware that some of the things I do to stay in Her favor are wrong. It's not like I want to. It's...
It's normalcy. I'm not trying to fix anything. I don't feel like I have to. [ His hand scrambles to his chest to make sure his key is still under his shirt. ] I was desperate, Josuke. I was desperate and She has done nothing but make me feel better. You told me that you hated yourself when you first became a monster and had to deal with the psychological and physical things, right?
I hated it too. She makes me feel like I'm secure with myself again. [ Rohan's wall of words shakes here and there but he means it. ] The things She asks me to do aren't 'fun'. I would rather be considered safe with the entity who brought me here for a reason than sit idly by. You don't see me forcing it on you or Jotaro, do you?
I... I'll be fine. [ A pause. ] I came here with a name no one knew because we weren't from the same place. It feels good to have a purpose again. I can make all the art I want here but if there isn't anyone who appreciates me for what I do-- [ Because Mister Man's anxiety and social issues are showing through. ] --what else do I have?
Don't call me a psychopath, Josuke. I don't like that word.
[ It's a rare moment where Rohan Kishibe feels actually upset and it shows in his face rather than just his body language. ]
Please understand. I don't want to go back to hating myself because I'm a nobody again. [ Another beat. ]
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Josuke isn't aware of WHY Rohan is in on this. It's for a selfish reason. A reason nonetheless. ]
Josuke, She helped me. She helped fix something that I wouldn't have been able to mend on my own. You know that I am not the type to blindly run into things. When I needed the most help--... When I was rapidly losing inspiration to make art here, that was when I went to Her. I'm well aware that some of the things I do to stay in Her favor are wrong. It's not like I want to. It's...
It's normalcy. I'm not trying to fix anything. I don't feel like I have to. [ His hand scrambles to his chest to make sure his key is still under his shirt. ] I was desperate, Josuke. I was desperate and She has done nothing but make me feel better. You told me that you hated yourself when you first became a monster and had to deal with the psychological and physical things, right?
I hated it too. She makes me feel like I'm secure with myself again. [ Rohan's wall of words shakes here and there but he means it. ] The things She asks me to do aren't 'fun'. I would rather be considered safe with the entity who brought me here for a reason than sit idly by. You don't see me forcing it on you or Jotaro, do you?
I... I'll be fine. [ A pause. ] I came here with a name no one knew because we weren't from the same place. It feels good to have a purpose again. I can make all the art I want here but if there isn't anyone who appreciates me for what I do-- [ Because Mister Man's anxiety and social issues are showing through. ] --what else do I have?
Don't call me a psychopath, Josuke. I don't like that word.
[ It's a rare moment where Rohan Kishibe feels actually upset and it shows in his face rather than just his body language. ]
Please understand. I don't want to go back to hating myself because I'm a nobody again. [ Another beat. ]
Take that stupid ribbon off.